violentwavesofemotion:

“The only way to get her to do anything is to tell her she hasn’t got the courage to do it.”

— Kurt Vonnegut, from The Sirens of Titan; “Between Timid and Timbuktu,”

I need to get back into the BDSM world. Ive has this void in me for the last few months and now I realize what it is.

Looks like ill be considering Temple this month.

So to most people today is just November 9th however to this gorgeous beautiful ray of dark humorous sunshine it’s her 23rd birthday I am so happy no scratch that excited and thrilled and blessed to call this human being this fantastic girl my best friend my tumor my other half and truthfully probably one of the first people to teach me what it means to be loved unconditionally by someone who is not family I could go on and on about the wonderful type of person she is but that would not do her justice all that matters if that today it’s her birthday and I wish we could party it up like we had talked about I love you Rini and I don’t want you to ever forget it

Incase people wanna creep my photography.

So this photo was a complete accident and though its blurry its actually a favorite because of the lights. Anyways last night was a blast seeing @fulcrumlake put on an outstanding show for the #sanantoniomusicshowcase #sanantoniomusicshowcase2017 #fulcrumlake #supportlocalbands #sanantoniomusic (at The Amp Room)

soleanticipation:

The last time i laid in my bed was the first time I cried in it

I don’t feel so sad nowadays. I talk.

dried out nowadays. I walk.

looking for lust. Looking like a lush.

close relations bring joy

I think of drinking gin and getting high

take a hand and find a room

fume the fat and generate a tune.

that’s all i need to get by

even when i’m alone. At home.

I did this to myself yes that much is true. And though i apologize for my words and actions i am also aware that i can only be sorry for the things i did based off of what i felt and thought was ok however that being said heres a few things to consider.

1) We’ve played this game for almost two years now.

2) You contacted me.

3) Your the one who cheated on your wife.

4) Your the one who went on about no longer loving her and loving some other twenty something girl.

5) You admited to looking for me in everyone you sleep with.

6) Your the one who appearently wanted to go to Sex Addicts Anonymous then changed his mind because angry sex sounded like a better solution.

7) She had told you come September she was no longer gonna pay for the house you got to stay in while being seperated for 3 months and you having no realy job.

8) Look at seven again because this all started around Septenber 1st.

9) Think on that.

10) You posted some girls photos for the public to see because you had to delete them. Whether said girl gave you permission or not that shouldnt have happened.

11) Whats worse is you allowed Ashlyn(opps name drop) to call that woman a whore because of YOUR actions.

12) I can finally see my part in this but more importantly i can see you for the sexually addicted manipulating sleaze you truly are.